promoting myself...

ran out of ideas. promoting myself isn't a simply job after all.
so, i start to think, is the statement truly fits me? is it exaggerating? or i actually undersold myself?
how could i ever measure how far should i go, how good should it be? i can only do my best, try to make it the best.
i often think that what do i deserve. pretty much of the time i seem to be confident about everything but actually none if i really consider them.
i think the thing i do best is to convince myself or i would rather say, i hypnotize myself, to do the impossible.
i hope i will succeed in doing this this time, again!

有感而发

觉得自己愚昧，也常不明所以地无乱说话。我的偏见，是否理直气壮，总归是偏见。撇开大道理不说，追根究底，或许是自己能力不足吧？只一再地自欺欺人。
挂在嘴边的，终究是空话，越想说明些什么，就越不值得被承认。放下成见，至少，我要尊重别人的自由，就算再看不起，那也只是我的观点。他人，也有他们自己的价值，凭什么要把我的问题强加在别人身上？另外，一杆子打翻整船人，是我最不想做的事。

hmm...

too many things to do, too few time to fit in.
it's like a function of time over things to be done.
once the time is constant and the things to be done approaches infinity,
the time will become zero.
haiz...

finally

got my mind made up. haiz... relief
back to the jungle though.
:'(

失落

像断线风筝，
曾经想努力地挣脱
却在成功之后
感到虚无
可笑

像凋零的落叶
向往的自由
获得了
才了解放纵的寂寞
可悲

不明所以的忧愁
不似圆缺
因为它没有周期
更像是无病呻吟
莫名其妙的自白

哀伤的表字是该死
哭泣只是哭掉水分
哭不出悲伤
而悲伤
只是被放大的情绪
显微镜下扰攘

失落
似离心力
深入无底洞
被卷进旋涡的
到底是人
抑是莫名其妙的感觉
空
似实物
是境界

我
不懂

to those who are leaving for their studies

Share a quote with you:
Be the change you want to see in the world.

~Mahatma Gandhi

Do miss us but do move on. Memories are to make us stronger not to tie us down. ^^

blog reading experience

Never thought of how people think and never thought of how actually they feel. It's somehow interesting to get to know, the stories behind each individual (which is rather impossible), the deeper (maybe not deepest) part of a soul.
It's a nice pleasure to be able to wander around here. Thanks for every word that touches me. It reminds me of the memories, those being ignored and forgotten. Life is all about living in the present but who are we if we are without the past? ^^