无关痛痒

是牢骚，太多的，想把它们统统装进扩音器，对着天空呐喊。我的声量，到不了太遥远的地方，只有办法对着自己呢喃，轻轻地……
有很多想法，欲装进小叮当的八宝袋，在需要时能无限量掏出，却不易被察觉。如果可以的话，借个任意门用用，随时消失，随地蒸发。（其实是想回家。）
有很多话，用说的会别扭，写的太慢，希望只用心，就能刻画字句，一点一滴，有意思，有感觉。
突发奇想，想走在无尽的草原，累了就躺下休息，望着天空就能感到快乐，呼吸就会温饱。或许，这样的世界，在那遥远，传说中的天堂吧！

理清

当苹果掉在牛顿头上，苹果所造成的一系列现象，有一种串联的逻辑，直到伟大的结论诞生，苹果还是持续着它的法则，默默地。
理清，一大堆莫明其妙的问题，我的结论，很坚定，就像地心引力，一直都在，只是等待时机被发现。我想，我很明确的知道，就像苹果一直跌向地面。

another day

relationships are fragile, breakable and unpredictable. is there anyone who can offer a device or a way to strengthen them? or simply forecast any heartbroken events? what shall i take account of? i am pissed with all the ongoing problems which are not apprehensible by myself at all. 

勇气

大多数时候，我比较喜欢当个旁观者，置身事外，悠闲地享受着别人的喜怒哀乐。有点像变态的策划者（在SAW那部戏里），用心观察别人，扭曲实况，把自己的快乐建立在别人的痛苦上。当然，我还没进化到那个地步。我只是喜欢慢慢揣摩，行为的变化，却没有过份到偷窥。
然而，我不能常在圈子外，却也常不在状况内。我很懦弱地，拼命地，想要保护自己，敢踩下去但没有勇气前进。木头似的，原地不动。
很想彻底放开，然，身边太多的例子，让人却步，停滞不前。好想鼓起勇气，就那么地疯狂一次。
我想，我应该放下，随缘。
我想，我太执著了。

Something

Searching is not the way, as things will come if they wish to and none will if there isn't any attraction towards it.

so what?

somehow i found out that i like to talk to the air, describe something like nothing, and wandering without motives.
somehow i found out that i am Pythagorean Theorem from facebook. "a^2 + b^2 = c^2 You are simple, useful and people tend to understand you."
somehow i would try hard not to let people understand what i suppose to describe well. it's all crap.
somehow i feel that feelings are not link to anything but just wild thoughts that are pouring out.
somehow i just chill but...
exam is STILL going on and it is a long way before it ends... @.@lll

其实

很想把自己封闭在一个没人的世界。做着自己都不知道是对或错的事，没有对或错的事。很多时候，我没有办法衡量事情，我的秤已经老旧，落伍，它的标准已不适用在很多事情，包括我的情绪。终于在理智的里面看见不理智，就像太极里，黑半边的白，或白半边的黑。哭笑不得。我是该庆幸，我终于有点‘人’味；抑哀悼，我已开始迷失？无语。
我在迷蒙，看不清时，却能很实在地感受到，我踩着什么，握着什么。实实在在的，却一直没发现，愚蠢的自己，原来也只能在遗失之后，才能用别的感官去发现什么。
其实，我想说声谢谢。谢谢我的荒唐，莫名其妙，和狂妄。我的原则，我的思想，其实还没有找到立足的地方。是应该保留什么？是应该放弃什么？我想，我该有个大概。谢谢地盘的主人，我很佩服你的哲理。有时候，你温暖的像太阳。^^

beyond expectation

sometimes it is good to aim low, cause you will get less disappointment. but, you will be less motivated. it's hard to find a balance for what to expect and what to aim as not every time your confidence will be equal to your ability. and it's always hard to meet others' expectation because you will never know how worse is their 'bad' and how good is their 'okay'. i am puzzled... i am glad that it's not as bad as what he said but it does not meet my own requirement. so, what shall i expect?

Orange Moon (a hidden track in the album Orange Moon) by Khalil Fong

There we sat among the thousand
fools just like us
But not so in love like us

There we spoke of all our feelings
And dreams were born like that
And we hope for love like that

Now your dreams have changed, we're far apart
I don't know when or where to start
leading you from my mind

I want to stand with you again
I hope to find you here again
in the eternal sunshine

I'll search for the orange moon
that lit up our love on the ocean
while I held your hand

Now watch all the waves from the stones
where we gazed to the golden sun

If I see the horizon
glow just the same as it did when we stood on the hill
I'll make the arrangements, just wait on that corner for me
If you drop me a line I'll be sure to make these arrangements

Lay your head upon my shoulder
I'll sing a tune or three
Sweet melodies for thee

Softly speak to say what I meant
Why do you leave
My heart is at your feet

Well I'd like to share three words again
practise these words with you again
if you think is possible
and maybe I can pull you close
whisper in your ear again that I want you in my life forever

I'll search for the orange moon
that lit up our love on the ocean
while I held your hand

Now watch all the waves from the stones
where we gazed to the golden sun

If I see the horizon
glow just the same as it did when we stood on the hill
I'll make the arrangements, just wait on that corner for me

You're like summer rain that cools me, it sooths me
You are the person that I pray for every day

Maybe we'll sit on those stairs once again
Maybe we won't turn down have to pretend
You will be here in my imaginings, they’re imaginings
I'll search for the orange moon
that lit up our love on the ocean
while I held your hand

Now watch all the waves from the stones
where we gazed to the golden sun

If I see the horizon
glow just the same as it did when we stood on the hill
I'll make the arrangements, just wait on that corner for me
If you drop me a line I'll be sure to make these arrangements
If you drop me a line I'll be sure to make these arrangements

当

当
每个人都在努力
我很懒散地 逃避
用力忘记 一切的责任

当
大家都起哄 热络地
我却想静静躲在一角
用无奈的眼神 审判别人

当
一切都沉寂
我的欲望 会渲染
似墨 沾在宣纸
散开

当
犹豫 像夜降临
无止境的黑
挑破唯一的光
摧残 崩溃

当
动摇 悸动
的瞬间
心 止如水
何谓牵动 何谓挂念

当
不知怎
渐渐 渐渐
再也看不见
我了解
是时候沉睡
用遗忘 代替一切的弦
思绪的弦