promoting myself...

ran out of ideas. promoting myself isn't a simply job after all.
so, i start to think, is the statement truly fits me? is it exaggerating? or i actually undersold myself?
how could i ever measure how far should i go, how good should it be? i can only do my best, try to make it the best.
i often think that what do i deserve. pretty much of the time i seem to be confident about everything but actually none if i really consider them.
i think the thing i do best is to convince myself or i would rather say, i hypnotize myself, to do the impossible.
i hope i will succeed in doing this this time, again!

有感而发

觉得自己愚昧，也常不明所以地无乱说话。我的偏见，是否理直气壮，总归是偏见。撇开大道理不说，追根究底，或许是自己能力不足吧？只一再地自欺欺人。
挂在嘴边的，终究是空话，越想说明些什么，就越不值得被承认。放下成见，至少，我要尊重别人的自由，就算再看不起，那也只是我的观点。他人，也有他们自己的价值，凭什么要把我的问题强加在别人身上？另外，一杆子打翻整船人，是我最不想做的事。

hmm...

too many things to do, too few time to fit in.
it's like a function of time over things to be done.
once the time is constant and the things to be done approaches infinity,
the time will become zero.
haiz...

finally

got my mind made up. haiz... relief
back to the jungle though.
:'(